Damn Right

shocked...

almost cannot think open...


i am nothing without you...

guess i hav to work hard to get something...

haha...i do realize i nvr work hard...

i'm lost without a fight...


i'll jz keep try to live better than now...

being an ordinary human...

thx...i love you...

吃奇异果

啊。。。

我想哭但是哭不出来~~~~~~~~~~

等到思念像海~~~~~~~~~~

淹没我~~~~~~~~~~~

而爱已不在~~~~~~~~~~



眼泪不由自主忍住。。。

不知为何没有勇气释怀大哭。。。

我不是世界上最倒霉的人。。。

我只是个没用的家伙。。。

连哭的勇气都没有。。。



我找到工了。。。

在工作开始忙死我之前很想找人陪。。。

可是最近好像个个都有可伴侣的样。。。

我都不想以我的情绪打扰。。。

同时也不想因为你们加重自己的情绪。。。

好像都没人可以找了。。。

剩下自己了。。。

真正的寂寞。。。



整晚没有睡过。。。

一直听杰伦的其中一首新歌。。。

天亮了。。。

不知道天一路都下着雨还是早上才下的。。。

天光了才注意到下着雨。。。

我表哥睡到爽。。。

我却一点睡意都没有。。。

或许回家会想睡吧。。。



突然觉得自己一路以来只是一个多余的角色。。。

中四。。中五。。毕业后。。。

没有特别本事。。。

不会所谓男人必须的生活绝技。。。

我只是个花瓶。。一个配角。。。

还不是好看过人的花瓶。。。

一向没有对白。。。

成就了现在一事无成的花瓶。。。



旁白都不愿提一下的烂花瓶。。。

若一天这花瓶摔碎了。。。

这有谁又会提起呢？

我看5个最好的朋友会啦~



哈哈哈！！！！！

今天写的那么emo。。。

原谅我。。。

实在不知道该去哪泄了。。。

Babe i'm down down down down down~~yeah~~

seeing blogs and facebook after so long inactive...

after seen some1's blog...

her wall so many post liao...

like i've been gone for a decade...

><

some kind of bitter...

and sadness...

appeared underneath my heart...

although what she posted isn't bout what i thinking...

i felt tat it's the same meaning...

twinned on the nearly-same situation...

You told me once : " don't think too much... "

izzit mean...that's all？

you're totally disappoint of me?

sorry for being lunatic...

and selfish...

omg i macam cwc mental disorder liao...

thx alot~

i like my blog's new face~

thx to jasmine~

...i mean christal~xD

boring

wat should i post leh...

so long no on le want to post something but no idea...

boring boring me...

tasteless life...

till now i oso dun understand what you like in me...xD
___________________________________________________

i really cannot tahan la...

got a ppl keep making me jealous...

my mind want blow juice liao thinking bout it...

although you and him not sengaja 1...

keep thinking many many....

aikz~!

AikZ~~~~!

erm...

can some1 help me design my blog? =,=

very lazy google the materials...

cc!!!!!!!!!!!!! T-T

it's jz a dream

i hope i wun get scold by all frenz...



i broke up wit u at 7th...

we became fren...

but...

deep in me i jz cant really let go of u...

i'll try my best to change...

i will not ignore you or send you things tat u dun like anymore...

hoping that we can stop lying to ourself...

becoming fren...is jz a dream...

i will do my best...

$%^&* myself

i'm so sry...

无聊的'假期'..

holiday dua hari..
overnight at cousin hse again..
play maple...meet some old fren in there..
but cant find any spot for training T_T
so play new job Evan..xD
no ppl pei me play...
all holiday go play or find fren le...

ppl time got booked full liao..
i'm ok wit tat..
i'm not mad~
ha~~ha~==
i really no blame u lar...
so dun worry...go play bah..@@

haiz~

although it's over..
but i still cannot get over it completely~
haizz~
sry my dear..
but i will try my best to forget this~
i know you would nvr leave me~
i luv you~

wrecking/working?@@

1st day work~
although i tell not much ppl but..
i met so many kawan biasa ==
1st was wendy...经过还要大大声叫我的名..吓到..
2nd was pei yee...
3rd was evelyn and her bf..
then 丽薇,虹琳,芸琳,家伟,lolo & jaylim~
gaga(不是ladygaga),and 1 more俊威..
forgot hav who else..but i oredi so damm happy..

but still got so many thing to learn leh..
although it's 1st day..
but i cannot accept myself learn these so slow..
shy shy leh..coz i keep ask the staff questions..
bout these and that..agn and agn...
when got customer i ask question really nervous 1..
coz scare the customer beh song..
whole day like this lor..
dunno why tauke's daughter at shop more nervous 1 XD
they little little gurl know more stuff than me..
tauke's daughter sure know more lar..
but i jz cannot accept =.=
the feeling oppose me and get nervous..zz

i tot is 2 daughter at 1st..
then i realise got 1 more sis older than me 1 year..
walaoA..3 daughter..==
(i know whn guys see this sure ask ONE question 1..
they're not very leng lui though..wakaka)

when almost off i felt my right leg muscle weird weird 1..
b4 out of da shop jz kira kira the stuff..
then clear the dustbin..can go liao..
b4 my dad come fetch me i go 7/11 bought a slurpee ^^

when back home right leg kejang kejang zzz
still..ok lar for 1st day..(self comfort)

got bit regret accept this work so fast..@@
bcoz i cannot pei my dear lou po celebrate b'day..
so no celebrate her birthday wit her this year T-T
feel so sorry and sad...sobzz...

i~am..

waiting u forget it oso..
i learned how to wait only..
it's a really good idea..
so dun worry i'll lose control agn~ haha~

女人...

我说过的东西都没有哪个意思...
被你们扭曲到......
你们怎样想我不管...
你们喜欢...
我已经那么久没出声了...
我已经停止了...
我很头痛了....
我求你们了...
我认输了...
不要来烦我了...

==

小姐...
吵架的主题人物是你们叻...
不过我现在都不要理了...
下次发生什么事我不出声了..
因为我是天生是最不适合解决纠纷的人..
的确~
我不应该为了你们的事影响我和她感情..
没有必要~

历史性的一课..

医生和病人吵架了..
从不吵架的他们竟然吵架了..
为了两个人的事..
吵得那么姜..
接着又有冷战..
冷了过后又吵..
医生说错一句话弄到她哭..
因为太激动了..又冷下来了..冷静下..

医生找了几个人聊天..
突然过后看到病人线来..
他整句都不知道她在些什么..
看到两个字好像特别凸的..
看着警匪片的医生戏突然飙出泪来..
被吓到呆傻了..
但病人连续几次这样来吓医生..
几乎变精神病医生了..
不是医精神病的医生..
是拥有精神病的医生..
医生的妈妈看到他这样又说他发什么神经..

幸好..只不过是 *如果\IF\kalau\*
不然医生要用手术刀自残了..
医生知道错了..
至少..病人之前叫医生做的那个要求..
*他说就穿给你看咯..* =P

医生不敢再找架吵了..
病人不要生医生的气了啦..T.T

@.@ + =.= + F7 + F2 + F3 + F6

失望咯...怎么不继续吵呢...xD
开玩笑啦...

ps哦要你拿着字典来看我的blog..
只是我随心而发的字我直接按下去..
＋上当时我也用不到华语..==
当作是操练你的英文啦~hahaha~

到最后我还是不明白有什么好吵的..
but now already nvm liao ^^

见*了

昨晚去朋友家..四点才回..
和之前回的路不同..这次想想...
觉得从火车站那条路应该是快一点..
so就试下走咯..
整条路一辆车都没有..
我都忘了我当时在想什么..
因为几乎被吓stun了..
从highway转进火车站那条路...
看到一个马路旁有个白色的东西..
我一直想不是来的啦..
可是越想越寒..
回到家也不敢关灯睡.. ==
开着大哥那side的灯才睡得着～
haha..真是没见过*不怕黑..

jgn la gaduh ni...

dun argue lar...
all "kakinang" why wan argue...
got anything just say out...
face to face...too bad...
u ask me out de timing i no car ==
if nt you think i dun wan out meh...
very sienz...see tat woman bside yan...

family?

stayed at cousin house for many days liao..
father and mother want me to go home..
hmm...these's what thy said...

:"在那里吃住人家的很爽是吗?!"
:"是不是不用回家了?!"
:"你几时才要做工?!"
:"在不回来我就发脾气的啦!"
:"你信不信我和阿姨他们反面?!"
:"要不要搬过去住?"
:"是就来拾衣服走咯?"

"人家"现在不是你的家人吗?
不是很~~熟~~的咩你们亲戚关系?
整天扮样..有奖拿咩..
的确很爽..爽过在家..多多声!!
我不是不要回家..我回家很闷..
我知道我应该找工..给点时间来ok?
你要发小孩子脾气是你的事..
这跟反面一点关系都没有..
反正你们内心都不是跟亲戚很好的啦..
经过你们几次打来要人过后我确实想住久一点..
你不想你投资了几乎1万零吉的我不回家的话..
我可以走的..你的投资损失咯..
反正你们的四个孩子都是亏本生意..
我们四个儿子都那么样..
你们有没有想过是自己的问题?

这根本就不像叫我回家的话..
打电话过来=赶我走罢了..
family只是个天大的笑话..

nt happy..

moon ar....... T-T

plz dun feed my dear tomyam or nasi lemak oredi la...

her body cannot accept la...

later anything happen to her hw leh...

aikz...

lucky teng and cc protect you...

dear...what ever prob you hav wif thm...

you oso should eat the things that you suitable to eat...

hope you choose your fren wisely...

bcoz i'm not always beside you...

i'm very worry bout you...

dear ask you to leave her far away sure hav reason 1...

at LEAST...dun let moon control your life la...

dear really dun wan you to learn bad...

i love you dear...

016 & 017 (1)

很喜欢我们坐在一起聊天的时候~
大家互相坦白说话~
没有边界的分享~
什么事都可以和对方说~
我觉得好像..
和亲生的妹妹在聊天那样..
那种感觉真好~

WORK

so lazy wan work liao T-T
got any phone shop got vacancys?
for a newbie phone technician perhaps?
lazy lazy lazy lazy

i go be gigolo better ~
i wanna be gigolo !!! XD
who wan find me ~~ wakakaakaka...lol

想当年....

昨晚和伟杰在达良家聊天..
聊聊中学的陈年旧事..
跟朋友颠的时候..真的很好笑一下..
以前真的很废..
读书原来酱爽的..
一点约束都没有..
很想回去学校了..xD

虽然也有很多不开心的事情..
朋友啦..喜欢的朋友啦..
远方的朋友啦..什么事情都有..
mainly和朋友有关..(家里没有值得想的东西..)
亏我之前还觉得我的生活没有颜色和味道..
这些都是人生必经..很多都很难受==
puchong朋友的事情和Q的事情..
看着自己最好的朋友变样衰..
一回忆到这些就会出现很幼稚的思想..
坐时光机回到最以前..
把历史改变掉..酱就不会那么多人伤心了..
哈哈哈～
个人最深刻印象的都是第一次上台的时候..
那个观众压力整个压过来的感觉..
像被大风吹酱..站不稳就会被压退后的..
想到那在台上那一幕..
只是想那一幕而已..
可是还能feel到压到退后的感觉..
人生的第一次就那么惨～
有阴影了..哈哈～

聊到3点回家..

tired

at fren hse till 4am...
wakakaka~
hope darling wun scold me =.=

morning woke up at 12pm..
lucky din late for "appointment"..
fetch cwc and wendy go cc hse..
planned to swim at thr..
cc's mother very funny..
whn she saw cwc she seems like vy happy..
we enjoyed at the swimming pool..
whn we play till half..
cc mother suddenly come out wit a cam and capture us==
wat a cute mother..xD

after swim we went Mpoint musicbox sing k..
1st song i oredi voice broke..
i really dono how to sing anymore T-T
sing for 2 hours..eat kfc..
thn go cc hse eat lapsap food and carbonated drinks..
increase my stomach size and throat damage..sobz

siew yong called me go her hse bai nian at night..
but i late to fetch lei chiann bcoz need to fetch cwc and teng back home..
let her scold T-T
她一上车就说:解释!!不要告诉我你半路帮婆婆过马路啊这招没用的!!
难道我真的那么常用这个借口吗..XD

11点多回到家..晕在床上le==

妹 No. 3

感觉身边的朋友一个个生病..
我听到你的情况..
这感觉更深..更严重..
做姐的我现在才知道你的事..
没及时给你精神上的支持..
真是个烂臭的姐姐..
不过我保证..你不会有事..
姐一定不会让你有事的..

初1+2+3

三天都回了外婆家..
一直吃垃圾食物..
垃圾饮料..
一肚子都是垃圾..
这几天几乎无时无刻都很饱满的..
亏我还说要减肥那么口响..

大马的天气热到死人酱..
热到什么都不想做..
又睡不着..太热了!!
做么会酱热的啊!
某些国家就冷到死人酱..
暴风雪死了几人..
感觉好像2012在开始倒数了..
哈哈..大吉利是..

happy chinese new year 一点都不开心

昨晚我和妈妈放了一个孔明灯
我第一次放孔明灯
虽然是廉价的
不过也飞到蛮高一下(不知道是否掉在育华呢 =.=)
看着它升空那种feel
我许了个愿,就是希望茵快快康复..

昨晚12点听到和看到烟花的声音闪耀
情人节特别令人觉得寂寞..
新年+情人节令我加倍寂寞..
可怜茵..
吃了不能吃的东西..
又不够睡..又没带药..
结果结果..又流血了...
我都说了不应该回去的..
爸爸叫到又不能不回..

那么多不幸发生在这时候
想到都差点飙泪...

woo i'm SO HOT !!! XD!!

what's wrong with the weather o...
so damm hot man..==
i helped wash 2 cars today..
but i did it very willingly this time..
coz the water really cool me down..xP
today reunion "breakfast"..
normal normal la..
not all ppl attented..

very worry about lao po condition..
she back to penang ytd..
but now she said she bleeding agn..
haizz~kinda regret i did tat.. ==
i promise i wun do anything like tat agn..
i love u lao po~~ =O

jusco ~

went jusco with lei chiann ytd nite...

i tot wun hav many ppl go 1...

the first time i take the ticket...

successfully...without fren's help XD

walaoA..,parking full dao i find parking took 20min...(i think==)

till the end decide to park at roof level...

it is super empty...

feels like being cheated...

wonder why ppl dun like park roof level @.@

we walk till almost close thn only go...

empty handed ==

Face iT

since last time quit contact with Q. i'm obviously still love her. just because i wanna forget about her, which i could not succeed, i ran. never thought will talk to them all again. polar and Q.

i still can't forget about her after the incident. even when we're stop contact each other. gf and bf relation which only lasts 2 days. for me, that is not the end for our relation. i never love someone to this level. tried the oldest and cheapest method to make myself forget her.. by find and like another girl.. it is really cheap. because it's usually hurt another person.

i still remember. the first person i try to like was evelyn. my best friend's sister. well. to be honest i always like her 1. she's a real beauty. hahahaha.
(tell me who don't like beautiful girls?)too bad. she's way too good for me. i knew it'll be a dead end. then i stopped, my heart return to be the only uncle lim that she like to share stuff with.

not only her. i've tried few others also. i even tried to like lei chiann. (so funny hahaha) she noticed this and became more serious when talking about this... i'm looking for victim, because the Q incident, she said. she don't wanna become 1 of my victim, and i should face it. face her and all the things happened between me and her.

that's not what lei said earlier. all people said to me stop seeing her anymore. included lei herself. tell me to face her?? how??? i cannot completely let go off her even time passed so long already. what if i get addict to her again? i'm scared. when i chase back yan. i just ignored lei's word. well, it is a success. and i'm happy with her. although at first i treat her not 100% pure.

almost the same time, fate let me and Q meet each other again. this made my heart feel very suffer. because i knew i'm still addicted to her. Q still like old times. sure have argue with current bf. sometimes will tell me also. to be honest it really bugs me. every time argue sure got reason? she never think about herself have problem. her biggest problem is dunno how to tolerate with couple, and she is so unlucky enough to meet every guy with the difficulty to tolerate with couple. or she just like to argue? seems that she dump me cause i'm too pure hearted to argue with other people. (i bet Q will stop choi me after seeing these. haha.)

think back what lei told me. she's right.. again.. why she always right 1?!! although i not really face it with my own will =.= but, the truth is i manage to forget her already. which mean i could treat her as a real friend no think much much. thanks lei for woke me up. god bless you.

now i realised that my true love is always in front of my eyes. i hurt her once. but i am not stupid enough to do the same again. now, i will cherish her with my full heart. believe me.

如我所答应的,亲爱的,我为了你放弃了一个我曾经深爱的人,
不知我亲爱的老婆愿意为我付出一些东西吗?
例如更加爱我?或者让我更加疼你？

以后我会带你去一个爬山的旅程,就好像你怎样进入我的生活里
在未来，不论我们将会面对什么困难，我都会将我们的人生经营得好像日出般的完美~
我要你陪我一次见证完美的日出，就好像你如何把我的人生从低谷带上巅峰~
所以，不知道你准备好要参加这个旅程；加入我的人生了吗？

你一定说我骗人

最后一天去学院了

和平时一样去搭ktm去tasik selatan

转LRT去HangTuah

今天有一点点不同

要下车那时有一个好心的女人

把一个和我同站下车的盲uncle交托给我

我就点头咯～我的确有扶他

我把他带到上完楼梯

就发生了奇怪的事

两个声音不知道哪里跑出来

甲*:这个uncle碍手碍脚的!
把他抛下自己走啦!
你还要赶LRT的叻!

乙*:你刚刚答应别人要看着他的啊..
不怕他被别的人撞倒或者迷路吗?

*由于不知道这两个声音是谁也不知哪里来的
所以称为甲和乙


结果..我放了他自己走

那时蛮多人一下的..我真的好狠

回头看一看他..想要回去的拉回他的手的

看到另外一个好心的马来女子带着他了

自己心里叹了一下

虽然也没有人注意到我的举止

但我一直想到这件事..感到很羞耻内疚 T_T

graduate...

要毕业了啊!!!!

这个烂臭课程...

讲要考试过后又没有...

我不喜欢考试不过这样...

真的太马虎了咯...

老师还说不要弄到这个diploma课程好像毫无价值的样...

不过看来这个课程本身就是这种价钱罢了咯...

懒惰做工...不想进社会大学...

我要回中学时代啊～扎到～T.T

BUGS!!!

i watch my feet every step i walked in my hse...

bcoz...the sons of a!!! fly~....

crawling all over the floor...

my mom order me catch them all!!!

so disgusting !!!!i wan vomit liao!!!!

insomnia...

every night oso cant sleep well...

ytd i listen mp3 and sing under my pillow...

and my mood were totally controlled by the song...

love song...i sing and...smile wit myself...

linkin park's...i shout under pillow...

and sad songs...i jz felt my tears...

DO NOT ask me what's wrong...

coz i don't know...TT

tolong ar...TT

是我想太多～你总这样说～

昨天庆祝我孙女的生日...
这次被批评少话讲/耍酷/"滥有型"...
都是被批评惯了的...
我都是以一句"我就是酱的咯"带过...
但那时我真的非常不自在...
看到他和他妹就是有种很奇怪的感觉...
就连蕾倩都看我不爽了...
我的心事要放下...真的很难...(看了这句过后一定又有人骂我)
至少我不会说"不可能"了咯...拜托不要骂我啦..TT

人还没来完时...
全部坐位坐到散散就是特地玩"他们"...
不要让"他们"坐在一起...
"他们"是谁???问来全部又来一招"不能说的秘密"...
过后看到成光和翠频拖手出场...
嗄??!!不可能吧???他们俩???
成光和翠频pt我一点都不知情咯...
又一次受到朋友的惊吓～

都怪我自己太放不下...离群了...哈哈 ==