Face iT

since last time quit contact with Q. i'm obviously still love her. just because i wanna forget about her, which i could not succeed, i ran. never thought will talk to them all again. polar and Q.

i still can't forget about her after the incident. even when we're stop contact each other. gf and bf relation which only lasts 2 days. for me, that is not the end for our relation. i never love someone to this level. tried the oldest and cheapest method to make myself forget her.. by find and like another girl.. it is really cheap. because it's usually hurt another person.

i still remember. the first person i try to like was evelyn. my best friend's sister. well. to be honest i always like her 1. she's a real beauty. hahahaha.
(tell me who don't like beautiful girls?)too bad. she's way too good for me. i knew it'll be a dead end. then i stopped, my heart return to be the only uncle lim that she like to share stuff with.

not only her. i've tried few others also. i even tried to like lei chiann. (so funny hahaha) she noticed this and became more serious when talking about this... i'm looking for victim, because the Q incident, she said. she don't wanna become 1 of my victim, and i should face it. face her and all the things happened between me and her.

that's not what lei said earlier. all people said to me stop seeing her anymore. included lei herself. tell me to face her?? how??? i cannot completely let go off her even time passed so long already. what if i get addict to her again? i'm scared. when i chase back yan. i just ignored lei's word. well, it is a success. and i'm happy with her. although at first i treat her not 100% pure.

almost the same time, fate let me and Q meet each other again. this made my heart feel very suffer. because i knew i'm still addicted to her. Q still like old times. sure have argue with current bf. sometimes will tell me also. to be honest it really bugs me. every time argue sure got reason? she never think about herself have problem. her biggest problem is dunno how to tolerate with couple, and she is so unlucky enough to meet every guy with the difficulty to tolerate with couple. or she just like to argue? seems that she dump me cause i'm too pure hearted to argue with other people. (i bet Q will stop choi me after seeing these. haha.)

think back what lei told me. she's right.. again.. why she always right 1?!! although i not really face it with my own will =.= but, the truth is i manage to forget her already. which mean i could treat her as a real friend no think much much. thanks lei for woke me up. god bless you.

now i realised that my true love is always in front of my eyes. i hurt her once. but i am not stupid enough to do the same again. now, i will cherish her with my full heart. believe me.

如我所答应的,亲爱的,我为了你放弃了一个我曾经深爱的人,
不知我亲爱的老婆愿意为我付出一些东西吗?
例如更加爱我?或者让我更加疼你？

以后我会带你去一个爬山的旅程,就好像你怎样进入我的生活里
在未来，不论我们将会面对什么困难，我都会将我们的人生经营得好像日出般的完美~
我要你陪我一次见证完美的日出，就好像你如何把我的人生从低谷带上巅峰~
所以，不知道你准备好要参加这个旅程；加入我的人生了吗？