Face iT

since last time quit contact with Q. i'm obviously still love her. just because i wanna forget about her, which i could not succeed, i ran. never thought will talk to them all again. polar and Q.

i still can't forget about her after the incident. even when we're stop contact each other. gf and bf relation which only lasts 2 days. for me, that is not the end for our relation. i never love someone to this level. tried the oldest and cheapest method to make myself forget her.. by find and like another girl.. it is really cheap. because it's usually hurt another person.

i still remember. the first person i try to like was evelyn. my best friend's sister. well. to be honest i always like her 1. she's a real beauty. hahahaha.
(tell me who don't like beautiful girls?)too bad. she's way too good for me. i knew it'll be a dead end. then i stopped, my heart return to be the only uncle lim that she like to share stuff with.

not only her. i've tried few others also. i even tried to like lei chiann. (so funny hahaha) she noticed this and became more serious when talking about this... i'm looking for victim, because the Q incident, she said. she don't wanna become 1 of my victim, and i should face it. face her and all the things happened between me and her.

that's not what lei said earlier. all people said to me stop seeing her anymore. included lei herself. tell me to face her?? how??? i cannot completely let go off her even time passed so long already. what if i get addict to her again? i'm scared. when i chase back yan. i just ignored lei's word. well, it is a success. and i'm happy with her. although at first i treat her not 100% pure.

almost the same time, fate let me and Q meet each other again. this made my heart feel very suffer. because i knew i'm still addicted to her. Q still like old times. sure have argue with current bf. sometimes will tell me also. to be honest it really bugs me. every time argue sure got reason? she never think about herself have problem. her biggest problem is dunno how to tolerate with couple, and she is so unlucky enough to meet every guy with the difficulty to tolerate with couple. or she just like to argue? seems that she dump me cause i'm too pure hearted to argue with other people. (i bet Q will stop choi me after seeing these. haha.)

think back what lei told me. she's right.. again.. why she always right 1?!! although i not really face it with my own will =.= but, the truth is i manage to forget her already. which mean i could treat her as a real friend no think much much. thanks lei for woke me up. god bless you.

now i realised that my true love is always in front of my eyes. i hurt her once. but i am not stupid enough to do the same again. now, i will cherish her with my full heart. believe me.

如我所答应的,亲爱的,我为了你放弃了一个我曾经深爱的人,
不知我亲爱的老婆愿意为我付出一些东西吗?
例如更加爱我?或者让我更加疼你？

以后我会带你去一个爬山的旅程,就好像你怎样进入我的生活里
在未来，不论我们将会面对什么困难，我都会将我们的人生经营得好像日出般的完美~
我要你陪我一次见证完美的日出，就好像你如何把我的人生从低谷带上巅峰~
所以，不知道你准备好要参加这个旅程；加入我的人生了吗？

你一定说我骗人

最后一天去学院了

和平时一样去搭ktm去tasik selatan

转LRT去HangTuah

今天有一点点不同

要下车那时有一个好心的女人

把一个和我同站下车的盲uncle交托给我

我就点头咯～我的确有扶他

我把他带到上完楼梯

就发生了奇怪的事

两个声音不知道哪里跑出来

甲*:这个uncle碍手碍脚的!
把他抛下自己走啦!
你还要赶LRT的叻!

乙*:你刚刚答应别人要看着他的啊..
不怕他被别的人撞倒或者迷路吗?

*由于不知道这两个声音是谁也不知哪里来的
所以称为甲和乙


结果..我放了他自己走

那时蛮多人一下的..我真的好狠

回头看一看他..想要回去的拉回他的手的

看到另外一个好心的马来女子带着他了

自己心里叹了一下

虽然也没有人注意到我的举止

但我一直想到这件事..感到很羞耻内疚 T_T

graduate...

要毕业了啊!!!!

这个烂臭课程...

讲要考试过后又没有...

我不喜欢考试不过这样...

真的太马虎了咯...

老师还说不要弄到这个diploma课程好像毫无价值的样...

不过看来这个课程本身就是这种价钱罢了咯...

懒惰做工...不想进社会大学...

我要回中学时代啊～扎到～T.T

BUGS!!!

i watch my feet every step i walked in my hse...

bcoz...the sons of a!!! fly~....

crawling all over the floor...

my mom order me catch them all!!!

so disgusting !!!!i wan vomit liao!!!!

insomnia...

every night oso cant sleep well...

ytd i listen mp3 and sing under my pillow...

and my mood were totally controlled by the song...

love song...i sing and...smile wit myself...

linkin park's...i shout under pillow...

and sad songs...i jz felt my tears...

DO NOT ask me what's wrong...

coz i don't know...TT

tolong ar...TT

是我想太多～你总这样说～

昨天庆祝我孙女的生日...
这次被批评少话讲/耍酷/"滥有型"...
都是被批评惯了的...
我都是以一句"我就是酱的咯"带过...
但那时我真的非常不自在...
看到他和他妹就是有种很奇怪的感觉...
就连蕾倩都看我不爽了...
我的心事要放下...真的很难...(看了这句过后一定又有人骂我)
至少我不会说"不可能"了咯...拜托不要骂我啦..TT

人还没来完时...
全部坐位坐到散散就是特地玩"他们"...
不要让"他们"坐在一起...
"他们"是谁???问来全部又来一招"不能说的秘密"...
过后看到成光和翠频拖手出场...
嗄??!!不可能吧???他们俩???
成光和翠频pt我一点都不知情咯...
又一次受到朋友的惊吓～

都怪我自己太放不下...离群了...哈哈 ==